Monday, April 11, 2016

Metabolic acidosis is next up - what next?

The shots keep comin

From the time of discharge life has sucked - first it was because my head was still killing me when they sent me packing after they increased my Diamox dose. However, that action was very short sighted as my head started to hurt less and I started to experience more and more nausea, dizziness and fatigue.

NOW - here's the kicker..... with ideopathic intracranial HTN (IIH), those symptoms can be symptoms of increased pressure and therefore I just need to be patient that the increased dose that we started me on will eventually work at managing that. OR those symptoms could be a dangeous set of symptoms called metabolic acidosis where the medication causes ingestion poisioning (sorta) and increases the acidity of the body - thowing off the pH of the body. As I've said before, with Diamox, I sit slightly acidotic but my body is able to compensate by increasing HCO3 (sodium bicarbonate) and my body also increases my respiratory rate to utilize my respiratory system to help compensate for what Diamox is trying to do.

So I waited a little bit to see if things would settle down - they didn't and so I went and saw my physician on Monday - had bloodwork drawn on Wednesday and then saw him again on Friday for the results. When I saw him on Friday the ONLY result that was sent was the useless pregnancy test that my physician threw in just for good measure! UGH - and because the lab was closed for the weekend, we would have to wait the weekend to know what the results from wednesday were.

So I went home from the appt rather irritated. I knew that something was wrong - I had the feeling that I was going acidotic and that something needed to be done. I took things upon myself and skipped doses of my diamox here and there to try to manage how severe the acidosis was. I just had an inkling - my lovely nursing senses were just a tingling let me tell ya!

Once home I had dinner then went for a nap. When I woke up I figured that I would try to get some school work done. Things are starting to become due and I can't just procrastinate just because I'm feeling terrible. I was sitting in front of the computer and watching a show and my chest started to hurt with a shocking pressure and charley-horse pain in my left arm from my shoulder to my elbow and I had interscapular pain - I tried not to think about it. I worry about whether I'm actually feeling this or whether it's all in my head. I know that when metabolic acidosis gets really bad that it can affect the heart so it's completely possible. Man did I hurt!

I waited about an hour of feeling like crap - with the dizziness, nausea, diaphoresis to go along with it - that I couldn't take it anymore. Off I went to the hospital. The initial ECG showed tachycardia but other than that it was normal. I also told them that it felt like I was losing beats. The ECG didn't pick it up but it's only a 10-15sec picture so big woop! But of course they don't put me on the monitor (which they really should have - stupid ppl) - considering when I got there my BP was 164/102!

I waited another 5 hours until I actually saw the Dr and when I did she was prepared at least - I didn't have to tell her my back story. She asks what brings me in - I told her about the metabolic acidosis thought and that I seriously needed a venous blood gas. She agreed! I got that then waited. I waited about 2.5 hours to find out that indeed I was suffering from it - though no results were given to me, nor was there any treatment. I was only told that my pH was 7.3 - but that she was concerned that that may continue to drop as my body tries to get through this.

When I was discharged with the blood work results & I was only told to reduce the amount that I was taking daily and to follow up in the hospital clinic during the week (though it doesn't open until monday and I wouldn't know when my appt time would be until monday when they would be the one to call me) but I also went to my family Dr and brought the bloodwork results to show him that I had developed moderate metabolic acidosis and that we needed to come up with a plan. Oh, and the blood work also showed that I had hypernatremia and hyperchloremia - which should have been dealt with considering I am taking diamox - a diuretic! Geeze ppl, way to drop the ball!!! So I told my Dr about what I had been doing to take care of matters myself.... making sure that I drink way more water (no juice or anything else - my K+ = 4.0 so it was ok to go ahead with this) and to skip more doses of the Diamox - but I had to be careful with this because I didn't want to put myself back in crisis mode trying to play catch up...... what a tricky thing I'm trying to accomplish!

So tomorrow is the day that will show everything. I have the requisition for bloodwork to take to my local hospital to have it drawn - unless I hear back from MY hospital of when they want me to see the Dr in the clinic - this would also include blood work. Tomorrow will tell me - I was told that I should hear something by noon. I still feel rather yucky but I feel better than I did. At least I don't feel like I'm having cariac issues anymore - when I got home I was still having the pain - so I had to self medicate with some morphine and zofran - thankfully after that and a nap I was feeling the cardiac pain was sooooo much better.

I had to let my profs know that's been going on with me as well - thankfully both of them have been great and have given me extensions. I just can't believe how I keep getting sick at the same point in time each semester. Now I just need to get better and STAY better!!!!!!! Wow though, these hits just keep coming! Just know that metabolic acidosis is rare - and it's amusing that IIH is a rare condition and then I get the rare of the rare things happen...... go figure!!!!

Monday, April 4, 2016

I told you so - and I was right (Idiopathic Intracranial Hypertension)

A little back story - as you all know last Nov I was diagnosed with Idiopathic Intracranial Hypertension (IIH) which means I make too much cerebrospinal fluid (CSF) and to make matters more complicated I have a narrowed transverse sinus which helps drain the CSF out of my brain down  my back - so while there's plenty of it going in, not enough of it going out. Well when I found out about all this I spent 16 days in the hospital trying to get it all figured out and trying to get the headache/migraine under control. I was absolutely ready to leave when they finally let me loose!

So when I had the follow up with the neurologist he wanted me to see a neuro opthamologist to make sure my optic nerves weren't in jeopardy. 

I was fortunate that I didn't have to wait too long to see them and I actually got in at the end of Feb. Well I was fortunate and the optic nerves weren't in jeopardy. Unfortunately this doctor thought it was a good idea to take me off the diamox that was used to keep my IIH under control because my optic nerve wasn't in jeopardy and so diamox wasn't the drug of choice - I was told to switch to topamax to manage the headaches/migraines.

So fast forward 3 weeks and I could feel that my pressure was building - I was starting to get more pain behind my Rt eye, more headaches, more nausea, and I just knew that it was just a waiting game. Well last week I had clinical so I had to wait til I got back home and the next day when I knew that the car wouldn't be needed, I drove myself to the hospital. I told hubby what I was doing - that I figured that my pressure was elevated again and my vision was starting to get hazy again.

When I went to triage my BP was 181/104! My pulse was running at 135, all because my head hurt so much! When I got to the back and was able to relax a smidgen my BP came down to 156/103 - yes still high but I was still in crazy amounts of pain and I hadn't gotten any pain medication at that point. Thankfully I had an awesome nurse who took my info and then went and spoke to the doc on my behalf so that I could get a dose of pain meds so that I could get a little relief! 

Unfortunately it took waaaay too long for me to actually see a doctor - like as in 7 hrs! 

I saw the doc who wanted me to see a neurologist. I saw him Monday who talked about starting me on the diamox - I told him that I wanted a LP because then that will give the diamox a chance to reduce my CSF production and will decrease the current pressure in my noggen (head) - he told me that this wouldn't help because CSF fluid reaccumulates quickly (already knew that) but I told him that in my best judgement and knowledge that this was the best course of action and that this was the course of action the last time that this had happened (in November) - he said that I could bring this up when I saw the neurologist - so I stated this entire thing all over again to him. He tried to rebuke me but when I explained that the neurologist in the other hospital prescribed that course of action and then I posited back to him whether that course of action was incorrect - well then he turned his position around and freely offered the LP and said that if I wanted it then he was willing to do it if I was willing to take on the inherent risks - to which I was - mostly!

So he set me up in the left lateral fetal position (all curled up) - so that my back was curved - and he tried SIX times - twice he hit nerves and sent shocking pains into my hips and legs - to that I told him all about it - he said he figured he was just in the dural space or was slightly off centered. He said that the needle he was using wasn't long enough. It doesn't help that I'm not exactly a twig figure either and I've gained a few pounds (and by a few I mean like 50 in the last 2 years) because I can't exercise because of the rectal abcess/fistula escapades. So ya, I got poked a whole bunch with no results! And to make matters worse he screwed up my back!!! But he did start the diamox and gave me a loading dose of 1000mg to hopefully stop the production in its tracks.

Thankfully he asked anesthesia to come and see me and she did so the next day and was able to do the LP and did the OP = 31 - so she took off 13cc of fluid and the closing pressure (CP) was 10. I could tell the difference right away. I still had a headache but it wasn't as bad. We completed the tap and I laid on my back for two hours because I didn't want them to say that if my headache was really bad or worsened that it was becaue I got up too fast afterwards! (they've said this before - even though I've always waited the required hour) Thankfully when I got up I didn't have any increased headache.

Now I unfortunately had to deal with the crappy ass headaches and pain in the forehead, behind the eye socket, at the base of the head, at the shoulder blades and the spine from the base of head to about mid chest/back. The back and shoulder blades was pressure and pain - it's hard to describe. Either way it sucked! I was on morphine pretty much every 2 hours! It was no way to live. To top it off, where they did the LP at the L3-L4-L5 they screwed up and so I had shocking pain going down my legs and into my hips - holy mother fucking shit did it hurt!!! Several times I went through 16mg of morphine in 2hrs! and another time I went through 20mg in 2hrs! All because they fucked up my LP!!! Thankfully that pain has decreased as time has gone by.

So because of the pain that I was experiencing in my back my doc decided that I needed four hour around the clock neuro assssments even though I didn't have any deficits when he assessed me and I am and was completely alert and oriented the entire time - I could and can tell you if anything changes! I had told him that I was having tingling in my fingers and my feet and a bit of numbness in my feet - something I had experienced when I was on the diamox previously - a known side effect of the diamox - something to which I was medicating with lyrica.... I had asked for an increase in lyricca actually because we were increasing the diamox and so I knew that these symptoms were just going to increase as well. I was told that I had to wait on this because the importance was on knowing about side effects of diamox or topamax because they were titrating these and so I would have to ask my primary care physician when I was discharged to deal with that. I was so irritated. I wasn't even told that they were increasing the topamax to begin with.

I had gotten into it with them about increasing meds because when the med student came by he had asked me straight out what I wanted. I told him - I wanted the diamox increased. With IIH I make too much CSF. The diamox will ensure that I make LESS CSF. Therefore INCREASE my diamox so I make less CSF. They were concerned because the known side effect of diamox is that it causes metabolic acidosis. The bad thing about this is that it can cause your organs to shut down. Ya it's bad. So they are very leery when it comes to increasing a medication that will cause metabolic acidosis.

With me I am susceptible to metabolic acidosis when it comes to diamox. We know this because I went towards that in November. that's why I was in the hospital for quite a while because we had to titrrate the medication for quite a while (and also work around the doctors shit) - so I was told no - to which I did not take very well because I knew that my VBG (venous blood gas - it measures metabolic acidosis) was stable and that I was only slightly acidotic but that with this med I was/am always slightly acidotic and therefore a trial of increasing the medication should be tried because if not then my pressure will not lower and therefore my pain will remain increased and I will not be able to leave! So the med student left and an hour later the resident came and I said the same thing and he said that he wasn't sure that the answer will be any different but that he would take this information to the neuro team. He was like ya, this is a zebra condition, it's not like we get this condition everyday, we don't know how to treat it easily, it takes time and patience. Ya I know it is, I have not just one zebra conditions, I have two. It sucks!!!

The next day the med student came in and gave me the good news that I got my increase. Then the big guns came in and told me that since I got the increase I could leave that day or I could stay that day or I could leave the next day after I have my blood drawn. I thought it was best if I had my blood drawn after I had my VBG after I had the increase. Additionally, the medication is fast acting so the VBG would be accurate so when it came back sshowing that it was the same as before I was good to go!

So I flew the coop. Hubby and I went out for lunch and then we went to my primary care physician office to make an appt - I got in the next day because I had been hospitalized otherwise it takes a while to get in. When I did see him he wasn't exactly shocked/surprised. We made a plan to have my VBG checked next wednesday to ensure that it hasn't changed. If it's still stable then we'll increase the diamox and I'll talk to him about decreasing the topamax. I'm finding the topamax is making me foggy - other ppl say that this is common. I'm still finding that my pressure is a bit high and an increase in the diamox will help bring it down. But we shall see. Either way, I love my primary doc!

Monday, March 14, 2016

Passive aggressive bullshit

I'm getting the passive agressive bullshit from my preceptor - we just did a couple of days together last week. I'm supposed to do a videotaped session and so I have to ask permission and have to put this into writing. I did this and had my preceptor look this over and she gave me the go ahead. Unfortunately I didn't have an internet connection and so I offered to put the note onto a thumb drive and transfer it onto her computer - she declined this though. She said that it was fine and that to email it to her when I got home. Unfortunately I didn't get home til really late, then I worked the next day and so I sent it on Thursday at like midnight. Then I get this email on Friday (tho because I was up really late Thursday studying for this exam due for Sunday) saying that the letter is crappy (essentially) - tho said in passive aggressive manner - and that I had to do it differently. She then gave me an exxample of how she wanted it. Again all passive aggressive. UGH!

Also - this week was midterm eval week and my preceptor had her packet on monday and so I didn't provide one and she filled it out - and on Tuesday I had her and I sign off on it. Then on Friday she emails my PROFESSOR asking for another copy of the packet, as though I had never provided one for her! Again, passive aggressive! She COULD have emailed me.... but no, she goes over me to the teacher to make me look bad.

I don't know what to do about this all other than to make sure I keep my nose clean. I certainly have my back up! Goodness, why does this keep happening to me?!

Friday, March 4, 2016

Sigma Theta Tau International invitation

I've reached the big leagues and my hard work is being recognized - I accepted my invitation today.

I didn't quite understand the significance of the offer because my hubby (ever the researcher) has made me turn down previous offers to accept honor society offers of enrollment. So when he called me and asked me if I accepted the offer (he saw over my shoulder prior to him going to work) and he was alllllll jacked up, I didn't quite understand why he was all worked up.

He was soooooo excited on my behalf. According to him this is the honor society of all honor socities for nurses! He was so excited because only ~45 people would be offered an invitation. Now while this doesn't sound significant (it didn't to me at first to be honest) - lets just do so - this 45 person offer includes ALL nursing related programs - LPN, LPN-BSN, RN-BSN, Straight up BSN, fast track BSN, MSN, DNP, (including online/distance and on-campus) etc... that is offered by my university!!!  OK, my university is HUGE and offers MANY nursing programs and so when I found out that I was one of the 45 (out of probably thousands) then THAT is significant!!!!!!!

So ya, I accepted that one PRONTO and even bought my stole for graduation - gotta show that I got my honors and paid my dues - ha!


Now to just graduate

Wednesday, March 2, 2016

Yucky vomit

Little tyke came to hang with me last evening, asking to watch some TV with me. I was down with that! She complained her belly was hurting. Not unusual with her - she doesn't eat enough so when your body has hunger pains, she complains. I also saw her eyeing up my chips so I told her that if she wanted some of those that she first had to have something healthy. I told her she had to have a banana in order to "earn" the chips. Surprisingly this worked!

She actually ate the whole banana and made it through 45 min before complaining that she thought she was going to vomit. Another 20 min and the poor girl had her head in the garbage container in my room vomitting up that darn banana.I felt like such a shit head for pushing the banana but figured the hurting tummy had to do with NOT eating...

Well q15min she was vomitting and soon it was only bile coming up and she was dry heaving. I tried to get some gravol (dimenihydrinate) into her belly so that it wasn't so difficult on her - and she was having such a hard time trying to keep it down - I think it actually took 3 tries to get her to keep it long enough to actually be absorbed.

Then the vomitting episodes lengthened to qhr to 1 1/2hrs throughout the night. At least she managed to vomit into the container that I gave her and not all over my bed or pillow!!! By the morning she vomitted a last time and was just exhausted even though she slept. She didn't want to eat after she woke up - she actually wasn't willing to eat until my MIL made soup and we bought gingerale!!! But she drank her gingerale and ate her THREE bowls of soup and kept everything down thankfully! She also spiked a temp of 38.3 (100.94) but she wouldn't take tylenol/ibuprofen because she hadn't had her gingerale or soup! Such a funny girl - she would rather have a temp and feel crappyish because of it instead of taking something to make you feel better. But after she ate her soup and had her gingerale, her temp had come down to 37.7 and I was ok if she didn't want to take the meds at that point. But no fever after that point so that makes me happy.

Hopefully tonight will be a better night with no more vomitting!

Saturday, February 27, 2016

A little overwhelmed (again)

It's hard to look at the big picture when you see everything lying in front of you.

I started back at work. It was a good day. It felt right. Some even noticed that I was away which was nice. When I was away sick from the last place, hardly anyone would say anything. Hopefully it's a good thing that ppl care here to ask. Perhaps a friendship or two might actually develop - still to be seen.

But since I began again I got my schedule for work. I'm supposed to work every other weekend and then a day here or there. But when you see it all written down and then thinking about what this semester holds in terms of school work and due dates, it's slightly daunting.

I don't know how I've managed to work and go to school this entire time, I know I feel this same way every time. I don't know how I get through it. I know that I always do. But the feelings are difficult in the moment. I know I'm just feeling the crunch.

Goodness I can't wait until this is finished!

On a side note - hubby's family is pressuring hubby to go in on a house. In my mind, a little too late! The one BIL wants to get married, I know that he's no longer holding out because he doesn't want to bring his wife into a house where he doesn't have a space of his/their own. Hell, I certainly know how that feels - that's been my life for the last 7 years! But I also think that perhaps he should have to go through the hell that they've put us through.

I also think that bullying my husband is not the way to get what THEY want. I think that my husband and I should take priority when we make our next decisions. I think we've had our fill of his family. I'm ready to live on our own together without any of them. However, hubby has noted that they will emotionally blackmail him - about how they've "helped" us (FYI - not so much help when they make us pay a LOT to live here - and don't decrease those payments when one of us isn't working - nor is it like it costs that much for us to live here, so they're making out big time), and it's his "duty" to help them and how in their culture that family helps family. UGH it makes me sick. But I'm an "outsider" so I'm not allowed to say anything and when I do, they just yell and scream at hubby. I'm so ready to be away from them.

So ya, I have a bunch of stuff to deal with and when I feel it pressing down on my shoulders I begin to feel overwhelmed at all this.

Tuesday, February 23, 2016

Possible solution

I met with the specialty surgeon about my butt

I couldn't tell you how worried I was that she would tell me that the only choice I had available was the same as before - because clearly that hasn't worked out.

Unfortunately, this solution may wait 3+ months. I was told that unless I'm on the call-in list I could wait until spring for this solution to occur.

So what solution is this that is possible now?

I could be privy of a fistulotomy or a seton to have a meeting to discuss what the next steps would be - because the other options wouldn't be possible unless the seton was in place ~2 months.

This would mean more waiting if a fistulotomy isn't possible. However, fistulotomy would mean that my butt would be cut open and I'm sure that that would hurt BIG time.

Additionally, the doc made it seem like I would be back to school after several days - man does she not know how painful these things are! Or how cutting such a sensitive area up is also incredibly painful.

But really, I'll take painful for a small amount of time if it's dealt with permanently. Only downfall is whether I'm made incontinent (even flatus) because of this.

Hubby was all concerned about when this surgery would take place - he would prefer for me to have the surgery in 3 months - after my semester wraps up. Thing he doesn't get is that I have fairly understanding professors and who's to say that the next classes professor would be as understanding. I even said as much - which is why I now wait to go back under the knife.